My Confession: My Mistakes

Well if you look at this site, you would said that there is not a lot of confessing, just site recommendations and sporadic post. But here is me first confession, and the reason. First the reason, I'm at an interesting point in my life, I'm in need of some major changes in my professional, personal, and many other aspects of my life. (Here well just considerate on the personal life.) When I had this epiphany twice(I know it sounds odd, just go with me). First was when I move to my current home a year and a half ago, I was shopping for sheets when I realized that I needed someone in my life. It nothing like shopping in Linen and Things and thinking, "Wow I need a girlfriend!" that's how it happen, but I had just moved and started a new job so I didn't want any new romantic relationship. My first mistake. The second epiphany was four months ago, but that was along the line of changes to all aspects of my life. But still having a strong need for companionship in my life.

The main mistake I made in my personal life is that I don't want to play the "game" that we call dating. A "game" is the best analogy for dating, courtship and all the synonym for finding a mate. I guess what I'm trying to say is that: I know how to play the game(not really good at it), and I don't want to play it. But I have a strong longing for someone in my life. My mind and my heart, as usual, are at odds, with no sign a compromise.